razorbladesweetie
im still scared she’ll pull a my ex move
but I KNOW SHE WONT SO WHAT IS WRONG W ME
You obviously love this girl, and she is obviously okay with setting boundaries, so there is some level of trust and respect. I understand that things feel/are different from your previous relatioship. A lot of times when people come out of a hard/traumatic relationship, they havent fully allowed their brains to trust anyone else, even if they want to trust someone again. That’s not a bad thing, though. What people have learned about the past is important for the future. Now you know what people are capable of doing.
I don’t think you should discredit your fear, but I’m not trying to say you should be perpetually worried either. If you haven’t already, you should talk to your girlfriend about this fear and how you feel about your future. Do not say something is wrong with you just becase your mind is trying to protect you from a trauma that it’s afraid of experiencing again.
I’m glad your girlfriend made boundaries with you, and I think it’s important for both her and yourself to keep that communication consistent. Maybe even ask her before doing anything else in the future to send the message that you respect any other boundaries she might have. And whenever you feel like it’s a good time in your relationship, talking about these boundaries is important so you know if she feels any different. I know a lot of people say communication is key, but it truly is.
