zack look, I don’t know you, at least I don’t think I do, but that’s fucked up. I"m really sorry about your situation and genuinely hope it gets better, because the feeling of unreciprocated care and love is a horrible thing, and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone. I hate that I can"t give any real advice, because I"ve never been in a situation as bad as yours. I’d be happy to talk if you want to vent or anything [despite my common lack of being online] and I promise you that everything I say is genuine. Sadly, I feel that some people offer to do the same, but it’s out of just straight up formality. I’m really sorry about what’s going on with you, and I genuinely hope, for your own mental health, that it gets better.