zack look, I donβt know you, at least I donβt think I do, but thatβs fucked up. I"m really sorry about your situation and genuinely hope it gets better, because the feeling of unreciprocated care and love is a horrible thing, and I wouldnβt wish it upon anyone. I hate that I can"t give any real advice, because I"ve never been in a situation as bad as yours. Iβd be happy to talk if you want to vent or anything [despite my common lack of being online] and I promise you that everything I say is genuine. Sadly, I feel that some people offer to do the same, but itβs out of just straight up formality. Iβm really sorry about whatβs going on with you, and I genuinely hope, for your own mental health, that it gets better.