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I was mad at my dad cause he was pinning me down and his heavy ass was man handling me.
I was screaming and crying for him to get tf off me.
Step mom says he was playing cause thatโs his way of play.
Since they have three boys and all.
So I signed a bad word to him.
And he said while grabbing my collar, โWHYโD YOU SIGN THATโ and genuinely, in the moment, I didnโt even know what I signed. I was growing through adrenaline, fear, and anger. Now that Iโm calm I signed the word bitch
But then, I didnโt know what he was talking about I thought I signed a normal word.
Didnโt know he actually payed attention to my ASL lessons ๐
So he dragged me to my room and threanted to slap the shit out of me.
My step mom calmly talked to me and said itโs not my fault and that he just goes from 0-100 real quick.
I am in my closet and I made a little makeshift bed out of pillows and blankets and I locked my room door and put my headphones on and put my phone on dnd.
If they need me, they can wait. The one person I trusted just manhandled me. Now Iโm genuinely scared of him.
I told him to let go of me and get off me.
But no.
Still better than my bio mom.
Iโm just scared.
I have a blister on my thumb and a bruise on my knee.
Fuckass life.
๊ฐ โ ๐ช ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ค๐ณ๐บ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ด๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ข ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ด๐ช๐ท๐ฆ. โ โนใ ค๐๐
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Meant to put this on vent
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And heโs going to go to work tomorrow.
I wonโt see him for who knows how long. Cause heโs a truck driver. So him and my step mom will both be gone for days, weeks, probably even months.
I wanted to watch a movie with them before they left but not anymore. Fuck that shit. Fuck my feelings. Fuck everyone.
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And my playlist is fucking with me
Iโm having a whole panic attack and here comes this song ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
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B Blake moved this topic from Boredom
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Sphinx gotchu I moved it to vent- also tbh- i feel like your dad was wrong in that situation why tf was he pinning you down like that even if he was โplayingโ and when you respond to a negative way, hw gets pissed?
Never let the same snake bite you twice - The Joker
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Blake He was pinning me as a little game. He knows I donโt like that shit.
He isnโt really used to having a girly girl like me. But then it started getting bad. I wanted him off.
But nigga doesnโt know what to stop for shit. Even when I told him to get off, started crying, then started screaming
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Blake nah he was originally pissed by what I signed.
I didnโt even know what I signed tbh I just signed something in the heat of the moment
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Then I didnโt know what he meant by โWhy did you sign thatโ cause girlโฆ I so forgot I even signed it ๐ญ๐ญ I was just so mad.
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Sphinx said in Guess what just happened!! ((actually..this is a vent)):
Then I didnโt know what he meant by โWhy did you sign thatโ cause girlโฆ I so forgot I even signed it ๐ญ๐ญ I was just so mad.
I mean- Why did he pin you down like that?
tfym โwhy did you sign thatโ think about your actions, and sphinxโll think about hers (im kinda speaking in third person so) -
Blake I apologized and he did too, idk his apology seemed kinda likeโฆ He was blaming me? He said this.
Yeah he did pop me a few tears, frfr it didnโt even hurt like that but ye
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Heโs the type of person to have crazy anger issues and someone who kinda plays too much soooo yeah
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Look at this crazy blister I made myself have, I was pain stimming because I was scared after he fucked me up
And accidentally caused myself to have a blister
๊ฐ โ ๐ช ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ค๐ณ๐บ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ด๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ข ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ด๐ช๐ท๐ฆ. โ โนใ ค๐๐
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Sphinx my dad is the same- my mum would literally call him to ask him to hit the shit out of me just because I shouted at her because she was blaming me for something I didnโt do, which then caused me to have a meltdown (it was really bad) I was in my kitchen covering my ears swaying back and forth and crying (because I have autism and when Iโm having a meltdown my hated and dislike for lights and loud noises get worse) my mum told me to grow up. So yay. My dad came over grabbed me by my arms and started hitting me and throwing shit. My mum stood there and watched. My dad dragged me up the stairs by my shoulders and kinda grabbing my hair and threw me into my bedroom and still started hitting me to the point I was screaming and crying in pain and when heโs done what heโs done he left and my mum comes up acting all nice asking if Iโm ok and when I said no she started laughing saying it was my fault and bragged about it to my older brother she gets him to hit me too. Apparently is โdissaplinโ or however you spell it. And then she wonders whenever Iโm sat down and she walks by me I flinch and cover myself. Itโs the same with my friends whenever they lift their arms or hands I flinch and cover myself almost crying, my boyfriend saw it and I had to say I donโt get abused Iโm fine donโt call cps or some shit because my dads gone with his new gf and my mum has nobody else to call that would actually hit me so sheโs stopped hitting me all together and just shouts. From time to time she does say that she will call my brother in law to come beat me knowing that she would like start severely fucking scaring me. I know my bil wonโt hit me because heโs too nice for that I still just scares me. A lotโฆ
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Sphinx like I think my dads gf would be really nice to me if it wasnโt for the fact my mum wonโt allow me to see her like ever just because my dad cheated on my mum with her, because she waved at my sister the ither day and my sister started flaming my dads new gf for it. Like what if just if sheโs better than my mum. Thatโs what I just wanna know because I wouldnโt mind living with my dadโs new gf. She seems nice she really does
