Guess what just happened!! ((actually..this is a vent))

[Sphinx]

I was mad at my dad cause he was pinning me down and his heavy ass was man handling me.

I was screaming and crying for him to get tf off me.

Step mom says he was playing cause that’s his way of play.

Since they have three boys and all.

So I signed a bad word to him.

And he said while grabbing my collar, “WHY’D YOU SIGN THAT” and genuinely, in the moment, I didn’t even know what I signed. I was growing through adrenaline, fear, and anger. Now that I’m calm I signed the word bitch

But then, I didn’t know what he was talking about I thought I signed a normal word.

Didn’t know he actually payed attention to my ASL lessons 😒

So he dragged me to my room and threanted to slap the shit out of me.

My step mom calmly talked to me and said it’s not my fault and that he just goes from 0-100 real quick.

I am in my closet and I made a little makeshift bed out of pillows and blankets and I locked my room door and put my headphones on and put my phone on dnd.

If they need me, they can wait. The one person I trusted just manhandled me. Now I’m genuinely scared of him.

I told him to let go of me and get off me.

But no.

Still better than my bio mom.

I’m just scared.

I have a blister on my thumb and a bruise on my knee.

Fuckass life.

[Sphinx]

Meant to put this on vent

[Sphinx]

And he’s going to go to work tomorrow.

I won’t see him for who knows how long. Cause he’s a truck driver. So him and my step mom will both be gone for days, weeks, probably even months.

I wanted to watch a movie with them before they left but not anymore. Fuck that shit. Fuck my feelings. Fuck everyone.

[Sphinx]

And my playlist is fucking with me
I’m having a whole panic attack and here comes this song 💀

😭😭😭

[Blake]

Sphinx gotchu I moved it to vent- also tbh- i feel like your dad was wrong in that situation why tf was he pinning you down like that even if he was ‘playing’ and when you respond to a negative way, hw gets pissed?

[Sphinx]

Blake He was pinning me as a little game. He knows I don’t like that shit.

He isn’t really used to having a girly girl like me. But then it started getting bad. I wanted him off.

But nigga doesn’t know what to stop for shit. Even when I told him to get off, started crying, then started screaming

[Sphinx]

Blake nah he was originally pissed by what I signed.

I didn’t even know what I signed tbh I just signed something in the heat of the moment

[Sphinx]

Then I didn’t know what he meant by “Why did you sign that” cause girl… I so forgot I even signed it 😭😭 I was just so mad.

[Blake]

Sphinx said in Guess what just happened!! ((actually..this is a vent)):

Then I didn’t know what he meant by “Why did you sign that” cause girl… I so forgot I even signed it 😭😭 I was just so mad.

I mean- Why did he pin you down like that? tfym ‘why did you sign that’ think about your actions, and sphinx’ll think about hers (im kinda speaking in third person so)

[Sphinx]

Blake I apologized and he did too, idk his apology seemed kinda like… He was blaming me? He said this.

Yeah he did pop me a few tears, frfr it didn’t even hurt like that but ye

[Sphinx]

He’s the type of person to have crazy anger issues and someone who kinda plays too much soooo yeah

[Sphinx]

Look at this crazy blister I made myself have, I was pain stimming because I was scared after he fucked me up

And accidentally caused myself to have a blister

[Xx_Midnight-skyz_xX]

Sphinx my dad is the same- my mum would literally call him to ask him to hit the shit out of me just because I shouted at her because she was blaming me for something I didn’t do, which then caused me to have a meltdown (it was really bad) I was in my kitchen covering my ears swaying back and forth and crying (because I have autism and when I’m having a meltdown my hated and dislike for lights and loud noises get worse) my mum told me to grow up. So yay. My dad came over grabbed me by my arms and started hitting me and throwing shit. My mum stood there and watched. My dad dragged me up the stairs by my shoulders and kinda grabbing my hair and threw me into my bedroom and still started hitting me to the point I was screaming and crying in pain and when he’s done what he’s done he left and my mum comes up acting all nice asking if I’m ok and when I said no she started laughing saying it was my fault and bragged about it to my older brother she gets him to hit me too. Apparently is “dissaplin” or however you spell it. And then she wonders whenever I’m sat down and she walks by me I flinch and cover myself. It’s the same with my friends whenever they lift their arms or hands I flinch and cover myself almost crying, my boyfriend saw it and I had to say I don’t get abused I’m fine don’t call cps or some shit because my dads gone with his new gf and my mum has nobody else to call that would actually hit me so she’s stopped hitting me all together and just shouts. From time to time she does say that she will call my brother in law to come beat me knowing that she would like start severely fucking scaring me. I know my bil won’t hit me because he’s too nice for that I still just scares me. A lot…

[Xx_Midnight-skyz_xX]

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[Xx_Midnight-skyz_xX]

Sphinx like I think my dads gf would be really nice to me if it wasn’t for the fact my mum won’t allow me to see her like ever just because my dad cheated on my mum with her, because she waved at my sister the ither day and my sister started flaming my dads new gf for it. Like what if just if she’s better than my mum. That’s what I just wanna know because I wouldn’t mind living with my dad’s new gf. She seems nice she really does