@boykisser I know how you feel. The only thing that I tell myself that stops me is something I know you shouldn’t do to yourself. I tell myself “You don’t deserve the relief, Phoenix.”. I tell myself that all of the time. But I know you don’t need that in your life, so here’s my proposition. Get help. Get therapy from a professional or somebody that you trust with all of your heart that isn’t your ex. Talk to your friends about it, your family, anybody who you trust with that info. If you can’t do that, then just roll with the punches. Deal with the pain until you get tired of it, and then work on moving forward. The end of a relationship is not the end of you, it is an opportunity to find yourself before you find another partner.

Angiee😻 said in I loved mppc:

ppl getting banned for saying opinion or offending others like okay where’s freedlm of speech…?

freedom of speech is limited in all capacities, you have the right to say what you want, but we have the right to ban you if it’s against our guidelines for it. and it’s not exactly the best idea to have a site full of teenagers with the free speech to attack each other, that’s begging for chaos and idgaf what you say or who you argue with in dms or if you wanna call someone out without using their name, go for it, but when people start namedropping and mentioning each other it gets messy and it makes moderation much harder than need be.

i’m a firm believer in the fact that you deserve your freedom of speech and whatever you wanna say, and if you need to call someone out and you need me to lock a post, dm me and we’ll talk about it and come up with a solution, but also it’s not a good idea to give any group of people the freedom to say and do whatever the fuck they want, that’s a cause for chaos.

@ゼフィラ-ヤラ I’m really sorry to hear. Take care, and I wish you well.

finneass <33 I miss my uncle, I was too young to realize what death was, but I miss the fact that I never really got to meet the man.

Duncan huh

{_𝐘𝐋𝐋_} Im glad to hear from you after a while. I hoped you were alright since your posts before. I am very sorry your problems got to this point. It is very sad. But I am very happy you realize this is a problem and I hope you take the steps to figuring it out. We all root for you 💙

@Duchess #StayRandom 💯 (:

zack I see your stories about your father and… Im honestly surprised he’s not in jail. I dont know the guy, or know if he ever is nice on some occasions, but it doesnt seem like he’s ever given you any grace despite life circumstances. He’s a single man and isnt even trying to make you have a decent life. I’ll admit, I think about that sometimes. Especially that post you made about it going too far. That really resonated with me. He could have been locked up for that 100%. It is not easy to get justice for parents. Im at least really glad you still show up to everything in life despite everything. Even to this rinky dink forum. It’s really hard to deal with people who seem to go completely out of their way to be a jerk, and with the internal disgust with that person will likely not go away for a long time, if ever. But Im very glad you dont ever blame yourself. A lot of people give up when the enemy is too strong and begin to feel at fault for “not trying enough.” Your father seems like a rage baby and doesnt understand anything he’s doing. People who will blame their child before they look within themselves are selfish and dont deserve kids at all. It’s the hardest thing to go through when you know your parent or parents dont have your best interest at heart and would throw you in front of them to protect their ego while simultaneously making sure youre put down enough to always stay behind them. I am sorry you are called names. It’s harder to ignore stuff like that than it is a random troll online. It’s personal. The only thing i know that helps is dethroning someone in your mind and everything they say so it feels less impactful. Fighting back is the first thing anyone would want to do but it makes things worse every time. There’s not a single thing said that could ever change someone like that, even if it feels right inside to make yourself heard. It doesnt matter what people like your father hears. It will always be filtered through whatever mental problem he has.

I dont think there’s anything I could ever say that could lighten your load, but Im cheering you on untill you never have to see that clown ever again.

Oppositional Defiant Disorder

Y’know, the disorder where one disrespects people of authority? (like I disrespect my mom and dad quite a bit, but that’s cuz of my disorder.) It kinda explains itself with the “oppositional defiant” thing, like someone says black, I say white, someone says white, I say black. However, my mom likes to call ANYTHING opposite from what she says as me being “oppositional” and it’s ANNOYING. like she’ll say a food item that I don’t particularly like and so I say what I actually like and she fucking calls it “oppositional” like I’m not stating one of my favourite foods and instead just saying it so that I can be the opposite of my mom. it bugs me so much and I hate it when she does that. I feel like more people should actually know about ODD and consider it real, but also don’t be like my mom who misunderstands it and almost practically (IDK I GUESS) make fun of me for it. (no offence to my mom, I love her lol, it’s just she can be REALLY ANNOYING sometimes.)

Real chat

К𝚲𝝉𝒾𝚵, I’m so scared of the future, К𝚲𝝉𝒾𝚵.

I’m scared of betrayal because of you, Jayce Gilpin.

I miss being loved because of you, К𝚲𝝉𝒾𝚵.

I’m scared of being alone because of ∞

Ȋ’ḿ ìṇ á ďơẅņẃǻŗḏ ṧṕǐṟäꝉ…

К𝚲𝝉𝒾𝚵, I’m so alone, К𝚲𝝉𝒾𝚵…

I’m tired of losing the connection, К𝚲𝝉𝒾𝚵.

But even if I was brave enough to seek it, nobody would connect to somebody like me.

I ‘ m ⠀⠀a l o n e . . .

We’ve only so much time. I wish you could be mine, evermore… Maybe there’s nowhere to explore. I was made for you, and you were made for me. Simply, you and me were meant to be. See me as I dance with you in the sea, scenes that were once left unseen. Believe.

Soon it will just be us two. Too many tunes to lose, yet I know they’re overdue. Blue hues move through the moon, but all I view is you.

Hear me here, for someday my voice might not be near. My dear, steer clear of the tears, for they are mere days compared to our years. Let them vanish and disappear like mere peers in the crowded piers.

I was made for you, and you were made for me. We need to be, I want to be yours for eternity. Never leave, just believe me when I speak your name by the sea. Infinity is where I want us to flee, for I just want to leave our purgatory. Dream with me by the sea as I recite my stories.

Stay by my side as I lie in the night, and fly into the sky. Just you and I rising high into the bright light, letting it ignite blind eyes and bind our minds in sight. Time might hide the truth from our flight, but wherever we go tonight, I know it’ll be paradise as long as it’s just you and I.

Lost in the dark, we embark in the sky we claim as ours. Lost in the stars.

It’s all been heard before, but now I mean it more. Soar off of the floor and reach the eye of the storm, take form in the war torn land to bring peace once more. It is you I’d do anything for, and it’s only you that I adore. Leave behind the blizzard’s core and reach the warmth beyond. This story of ours will go on and on.

The blurring days stray from my lane, and I drift away from the sane. Towards your name I sway, drawn towards the same pain. I deserve to feel this way, so why should I stay out of the blaze? I don’t want this fate, but I know I deserve to be trapped in this cage. Rage against the rays of joy’s gaze.

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The flames of blame scorch my frame, and I wait through the pain. My fears and hate cast a nightmare parade upon the streets of my membrane, setting the buildings ablaze as the citizens run away. Maybe I’m crazy, and my hazy memories are invading my veins, see? A cybernetic train makes its way through the city of ads and vain. Acid rain and storms came, and soon the lakes fell into disarray.

…

Etched into stone, your name echoes and bellows in the land below. Knowing what I know, I can’t afford to let you go. I’m so scared of being on my own, without another soul to soothe my sorrow. I know they won’t, nobody wants to fix a waste of bones. Nobody would care if I broke and shattered into a million lone pieces of woe, nobody wants to sew a torn man woven by threads prone to taking tolls from evil roles.

…

I’m alone.

asher.dean.in.space I don’t know if this is gonna mean much coming from me, a stranger, but I’m proud that you haven’t yet. Everyone has thoughts of relapsing back to those kinds of things, addictions aren’t easy to get over, however the fact that you are coming to this community to talk about it and you haven’t yet makes you stronger than most people including myself. My advice to you is to stay strong and lean on people close to you, if you have a lover, talk to them, journal, you’ll make it!! And as for other people being okay above yourself, that’s not a good mindset, on planes, they tell you to put your oxygen mask on before anyone else, that’s for a reason! You can’t save anyone else before you save yourself.

Listen, borrowed. Don’t let others intervene between your personal relationships with somebody. It’s natural to not like somebody. Nobody should force you to change your mind, even if all your friend like this one person that you don’t. It’s absolutely scummy to force others to get along, and it just causes more problems rather than solving them. I can empathize with you, I’ve been through this exact situation once, just in a more roundabout way.

I’m really sorry to hear that happened to you. It’s incredibly frustrating when you put in so much effort and someone ruins it at the last moment. It’s understandable to feel disheartened when things you enjoy get overshadowed by negative experiences with others.

Have you considered life experience as a possible factor?