This is a lot in little paragraphs because if it wasn’t I would just be ranting about this shit and it would be a BIG post but starting tomorrow or some time this week (or next week) I will be resigning as a moderator. I’ve realized that some members here don’t respect me and want me to leave because I’m like every other mad mod on here and that’s taken a really big effect on me. I’ve been really struggling with my self-esteem lately and knowing that most people on here don’t like me or have been talking behind my back really hurts me and I don’t want to be one of those people that end up giving up on life because of it because I almost did a few times back then but I don’t want to be like that anymore. I want to get better but knowing that I’m just getting hated on and people don’t respect me really brings me down.

I’m not asking ya’ll to fully like me. All I wanted was to do my dream and become a mod to help users here and to help around the community and others don’t take that as a good thing. I’ve done mistakes and I’ve made a few recently but I never intended for so many of you to dislike me or to not want to talk to me and honestly that hurts because I’m not as evil and disrespectful as some of you guys think I am. I’ve really been trying to focus on school and myself and I feel like none of those are really working out for me and me being on here trying to help users that don’t even like me is hard. It’s really difficult to do things around here when all I get is hate every time I come online. I’m not saying you guys are making posts about me or whatever it’s just the fact that when I talk to some of you you think I’m some horrible person when I’m really not. I can be if I wanted to but I’m not.

I wanted to make it at least more than two months (I think its been that long??) of me being a mod but I can’t handle all this stress at once and it’s affecting me more and more everyday.

I’m sorry.

DeludedScythops is banned because he’s Lavender and he was supposed to be IP banned but somehow got on here again.
He was being very sexual in my dms on snap basically trying to guilt trip me into sending him things and he just… is not a good person. If any of you had to deal with that from him, I’m sorry. I should’ve banned him a while ago but then I’ve also been really busy with school and such.
But please don’t make any posts about this. Me and Shazz are gonna keep on the look out to make sure he doesn’t make another account.

@everyone
Me and Shazz_ have both decided to open the chance to try out trial mod for a few special people.

KayaRoseWho
Congratulations Akuji!
Shazz and I agreed that you would be a positive staff member and make a difference on the site and we really need that tbh lol. We can’t wait to work with you!
We will be promoting you asap.

{_𝐘𝐋𝐋_}
Congratulations YLL!
Shazz and I agreed that you would make the site a wonderful place and you were an amazing mod in the roleplay room on mpp so we’re looking forward to working with you!
We will be promoting you asap.

Blake
Congratulations Blake!
Shazz and I agreed that you would make the site positive especially since everyone seems to love you lol you’re a cool person too. We can’t wait to work with you!
We will be promoting you asap.

Thank you to everyone else who applied and we’ll most likely open up staff applications in the future. We love you all and have an amazing rest of your guy’s weekends.

uhm… alright.

@duchess (she deleted her acct)
Shazz_
KayaRoseWho
zofya
hidden5
Alyx💞
TheyLuvAsher.901
@tea-and-crumpets
Ŵølƒy_Hellhøund_Likes_Pizza
BheeseAlternateAccount
@Bandit
Ryleigh
virus_hex
jun

i probably missed a lot but theres a lot of yall so

PLEASE.
STOP.
LYING.
ABOUT.
YOUR.
AGE.
this is online and yeah I get it that some people are creepos but lying about your age is insane. I’m not calling anyone out here but just stop lying about your age to people. nobody on here (from what I know) is a pedo or anything like that and if anyone is then they will be banned but just… stop lying to people in general. its not necessary.

Shazz_

From all the years I’ve been friends with you today is a very special day for one reason only…
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!!!
You’re finally 18 years old and I can’t believe you’ve made it this far. You have done nothing but kind in the world and throughout this community and I’m very grateful to have you here; as not only a member but as a friend.
I can’t say how many times you’ve helped me through everything and anything and there’s nothing much I can do but do the same. You’re an amazing person, student, (A VERY TALENTED) pianist, a son, and most of all, a friend. I couldn’t ask you to be anyone else but yourself. Keep up the good work.
I hope you have an amazing day today and I’m so sorry this post isn’t longer like I wanted it to be but I am in the process of making you something to make it up :)

WAIT!!
We have to wait until the site isn’t being poopy so we can promote you guys. I just realized that I can’t even look at the groups in order to give the trial mod to you all.

@tea-and-crumpets
KayaRoseWho
@Bandit
@m-i-l-o
@poptart
@Soggy_Bread
Alyx💞
Shazz_
zofya
TheyLuvAsher.901

Bandit deleted her account due to her not wanting to be on mppc anymore. It’s nothing because of anyone on here or what not she just didn’t feel like being here anymore. Us as a community will NOT go around making posts about it from this point on and any posts made about asking where she is will be deleted. We will respect Bandit’s decision and have open arms to her if she ever returns. A lot of you love Bandit but we have to respect what’s best for her. Thank you all for understanding.

Thanks to Jordan, they sent me the link to the groups and so you three, ({_𝐘𝐋𝐋_}, KayaRoseWho, and Blake) are now trial mods.
I will be making a gc with you guys and Shazz to have an extra way to communicate if there is something wrong.
Thank you all, and we look forward to working with you guys.

I don’t even know where to begin, because honestly, everything just feels so heavy lately. I feel like I’m losing everything and everyone around me, piece by piece, like sand slipping through my fingers no matter how tightly I try to hold on. It’s terrifying. Watching people walk away, watching relationships change, watching myself become someone I don’t even recognize anymore.

And the worst part is, I’m not just hurting myself. I’m hurting the people I care about, the ones who are still here, the ones trying. I lash out, or shut down, or say the wrong things. I feel like I’m this walking storm, unpredictable and constantly wrecking the things I love. And I hate it. I hate that I don’t know how to control my emotions anymore. Everything is either way too much or completely numb. I miss the days when life felt easier… when I could smile without forcing it, laugh without guilt, breathe without this tightness in my chest.

I just want things to go back to how they used to be. Back when I was happy. Back when I didn’t feel like I had to fight constantly with everyone including myself. I’m exhausted from all the arguments, all the misunderstandings, all the silence that follows the shouting. It’s like I’m living in a loop of tension and regret, and I don’t know how to escape it.

Sometimes things just seem to fall apart when you least expect them to. And this is my time. This is the season of falling, breaking, unraveling. And God, I didn’t see it coming. I really didn’t. I thought I had more time, or more strength, or more something. But here I am, in the middle of it all, trying to hold my own pieces together while everything else slips away. While trying to help everyone in the mean time and also trying to keep myself from slipping.

Sometimes I just want to pack up and leave everything behind. Just disappear. Not because I don’t care, but because I care too much and it’s crushing me. I don’t know what to think anymore. My head feels like chaos and my heart feels like it’s constantly at war with itself. I wish I had the answers. I wish I knew how to fix it. I wish I could just snap my fingers and make things feel normal again. Maybe things will get better. Maybe things will get brighter. Maybe someday I’ll look back on this and understand it all. But right now? It just hurts. It hurts to feel like a burden. It hurts to watch people drift. It hurts to keep pretending I’m okay when I’m not. And god… do some people surprise you. In the worst ways. Or the best. But mostly the worst, lately. People you thought would stay, people you thought understood, people you trusted… they shift, they fade, they change. And it leaves you wondering if you ever really knew them at all.

I don’t know what I need. I just needed to let this out. Maybe this is messy, maybe it’s too much. But it’s real. It’s where I’m at right now. And I’m just hoping, somehow, it won’t always feel this way. I’m sorry.

Blake OFC C
Also yeah I get it

Blake
I hope you have had an amazing day and I’m so sorry I didn’t post this until now
You’re amazing I can’t believe you’re finally 15 no need to feel like you’ve been 14 for forever lol

Blake that’s awesome sauce
props to your mother

Strawberries and pineapples.

@Ranzai a lot

Sphinx It’s so cute!

Sphinx AWWW
I love when family members support others

𝜗𝜚 rylie but now I gotta get off the roads… (Jk )

Shazz_ OMG LUCKY!!