This is a lot in little paragraphs because if it wasn’t I would just be ranting about this shit and it would be a BIG post but starting tomorrow or some time this week (or next week) I will be resigning as a moderator. I’ve realized that some members here don’t respect me and want me to leave because I’m like every other mad mod on here and that’s taken a really big effect on me. I’ve been really struggling with my self-esteem lately and knowing that most people on here don’t like me or have been talking behind my back really hurts me and I don’t want to be one of those people that end up giving up on life because of it because I almost did a few times back then but I don’t want to be like that anymore. I want to get better but knowing that I’m just getting hated on and people don’t respect me really brings me down.
I’m not asking ya’ll to fully like me. All I wanted was to do my dream and become a mod to help users here and to help around the community and others don’t take that as a good thing. I’ve done mistakes and I’ve made a few recently but I never intended for so many of you to dislike me or to not want to talk to me and honestly that hurts because I’m not as evil and disrespectful as some of you guys think I am. I’ve really been trying to focus on school and myself and I feel like none of those are really working out for me and me being on here trying to help users that don’t even like me is hard. It’s really difficult to do things around here when all I get is hate every time I come online. I’m not saying you guys are making posts about me or whatever it’s just the fact that when I talk to some of you you think I’m some horrible person when I’m really not. I can be if I wanted to but I’m not.
I wanted to make it at least more than two months (I think its been that long??) of me being a mod but I can’t handle all this stress at once and it’s affecting me more and more everyday.
I’m sorry.
