I literally don’t. I’ve been trying to distance myself from everything, But it doesn’t help. I’ve even tried doing what I’ve been trying to do for years, But I really just don’t feel like myself and I don’t know why. I’ve been through way too much, And I feel myself slipping away from everything. I actually don’t feel like myself. I really don’t. And I don’t know what to do. I just wanna be happy, That’s all. And people in hell want ice water. But people just can’t get what they want. Because life isn’t fair. And it’ll never be fair. It’s fucking exhausting. I’m tired of pretending, tired of smiling through shit I don’t feel, tired of dragging myself through every goddamn day like it’s some kind of test I never signed up for. Everything feels fake. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I try, I fucking try so hard, but it’s never enough.

It’s all bullshit. And I’m actually so fucking done.

Sphinx uhm… How do I say this in the nicest way possible.
Your mother is psychotic.
She needs help. There is no reason at all for her to act like that. Soon to come she’s going to realize why you don’t like her and why you left in the first place and once she realizes that she’s going to hate her life. I’ve had to deal with this with my mom too a few years back. I am sorry you have to deal with this. This isn’t okay at all. All I can really say is I’m glad your out of there and with a loving parent. I mean yeah, I’m sure your mom loves you because your her daughter but she is downright psychotic and needs some type of help.

【V】【a】【l】【e】 No

sorrows nope–nothing super serious, it was just really weird- like ma’am, you’re like…67. I’m 16- no thank you-

What’s with the picture? It looks nice.

𝜗𝜚 rylie dont ruin your life with them

@ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤbarks-in-corner hey, i know i don’t know you too well, but if you ever need someone to vent to, or just someone to talk to in general, i could try mybest to talk and give the best advice i could think of
||killing|| yourself may seem like it’s something to consider, but i promise you, it’s better to look more for help than to put everything down and go. im saying this from expierence, and i don’t want you to go through the same thing i did. yes, i know we might have different mindsets, but i hope whatever im trying to say makes sense in your own way of thinking and finds you well.

With love, Ana

@ᴛʀᴇᴠᴏʀ :huh:

@ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤbarks-in-corner
I’m sorry that you had to hear that from your mother and I’m glad you wanted to defend your father.

Some things can be brought out to hurt. For example, like how your mother mentions the incident of your friend and their parent(s), which was not okay.
But it is also not okay to be in an adults conversation (Just my personal opinion).
No one really knows if your father paid the taxes or not. He would only know if he’d done so, which could probably why your mother was yelling at him like that.

As a child in some tough situations, try to have fun as much as possible before you get to the point where have to do the important things of life.

I believe you can do it.
sincerely, Raven.

@Yangyang
It’s all about how the world/earth develops.
Humanity grows and dies. Yes, there is impact with the world that we see today, but it’s how life connects with each other.
Some people are going to be careless, disrespectful, cruel, and evil. Some people are going to be kind, nice, righteous, regarding, and respectful.
We all have our own minds on what we think is right and wrong. Even I may do some things that are incorrect or correct.

I see that it may be best to try to be positive each day, even if you or someone else doesn’t think so. It’s sometimes hard to understand how others around you can be so negative. There is a lot of people out there. People you have never met; don’t know about yet, but believe that you can be a positive influence. Yes, you’re one in eight billion, but just a small message can reach out everywhere.

Just believe,
sincerely Raven.

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks, my mom gets mad at me when I'm not as good as her at something.

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks, my dad is home, but never really present. I can't really remember the last time me and my dad just did something.

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks, I'm pretty sure my parents hate the fact I'm biromantic. (Bi/Ace)

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks, people have basically fat-shamed me to my face.

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks, my home life is always really tense.

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks, I'm a burnt-out ex-straight-A's student and theatre kid.

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks, I put on a fake façade and have a different personality for everyone I meet.

“You’re so funny!”
Thanks. I'm a fucking disappointment.

@Yangyang_x2 Could I maybe try to help you…?

This… this makes me angry. You absolutely didn’t deserve that. Either your mom has some kind of mental disorder to have her behave this way toward you, or she’s just… crazy. I absolutely loathe people like your mom, those who abuse people then have to fucking victimize themselves when they get flamed, and then everything goes wrong. This is why I hate this world. People like this make me want to pretend everything living right now is a dream and that the world we live in is actually fucking awesome. But no, reality has to strike and we still have people like your lazy, uncared for, and poorly thought of or executed excuse of a mother. Stay away from her as much as possible, she is a walking, talking, absolute garbage filth shit in this world that her children should not need to be talking to. I hope for the day you unleash all your rage at her, no I do not care that she is your mother, if she truly was why would she encourage you to commit suicide? The same thing happened to my grandmother with her mother back in the day, and she never got her chance, now she’s getting bad memories of those days. Just someday have the courage to do it, and I’ll be relieved.

I gotta clear my head… Idk I just hate myself and my highs n lows.

@Qian-Kun RIGHt-

@ɪɴꜰɪɴᴀ-ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx Well said, well said.

@Yangyang_x2 I get you this is how i feel since i got to my new school

@Yangyang_x2 Damn- Bro just listed two things I struggle with :huh:

@Yangyang_x2 “There’s a reason why god stays in heaven”