It’s the way I want constant reassurance, The way I crave attention more than I probably should, The way I feel almost needy just for someone’s presence. And I hate it, because I don’t want to be “ too much ” for people. I don’t want them to see me as annoying or overwhelming. But at the same time, I can’t help it. I just want to be close, To be safe. To know that somebody won’t leave me behind. It’s exhausting. Being this self aware, But still not knowing how to stop. I just wish I could be " enough " without needing so much. I wish I could be easy to love. Easy to stay with, But Instead, I feel like Iam constantly fighting this hard part of myself that wants more. more. more. more. and more. It sounds like greed to the point where that sickens me. My clingyness sickens me, My greed sickens me, I sicken me. It’s filthy. I don’t wanna keep draining people for my fuckery. It sickens me so much to see how horrible I am. And It’s disgusting. Absolutely Disgusting and sickening.

I just had to deal with one, Who happened to be my ex, Yuki. I mostly call her by her real name, Yolani. (She doesn’t deserve to be hidden anonymously dude.) And she’s been manipulating me our whole " relationship " and practically cheated on me. We were gonna work it out, but she blamed it all on me, so I had to waste half of my sleep time to cuss her out. I’m like still crying, And I’m tired. This combo really isn’t helping whatsoever. But I needed to get this off my chest BADLY.

YES, I had their consent

brushed my teeth, cleaned my room, and read 2 books

all while listening to my beautiful msi, and jimmy’s voice on low volume, i love you jimmy urine, no one can ever tske you away from me, ever ever

I’m draining people, Because I’m scared of my insecurities and scared to let somebody go. It hurts to see how many people I know leave me because of it. And it’s terrible. I’m scared, And I don’t know what to do. I’m really worried, Really scared. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t know how to stop being this version of myself that feels like too much. All I know is that I’m scared. Really scared.

Blake Skinamarink.

IT 2017 was 27 years after IT 1990.

If you don’t get it, Pennywise attacks every 27 years.

Blake @Siloxa922

Beep Beep, Richie!

Blake ATE?? SPEAK YOUR TRUTHH !! DON’T LET THEM SILENCE YOU

Blake STOP I SNORTED

TruthOfTheNorth He really is !!

TruthOfTheNorth His name is Renya !

Renya . lowkey just need to get noticed by him then i can confirm for sure he’s mine, it’ll take like an hour or couple of minutes, he’s so active on tiktok

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] no you’re not, back off, he’s mine, ok?

I need to take more photos of him

(Not in a stalker way)

Blake I guess that’s just how things are

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] Happy celebration of your birth !