It’s the way I want constant reassurance, The way I crave attention more than I probably should, The way I feel almost needy just for someone’s presence. And I hate it, because I don’t want to be “ too much ” for people. I don’t want them to see me as annoying or overwhelming. But at the same time, I can’t help it. I just want to be close, To be safe. To know that somebody won’t leave me behind. It’s exhausting. Being this self aware, But still not knowing how to stop. I just wish I could be " enough " without needing so much. I wish I could be easy to love. Easy to stay with, But Instead, I feel like Iam constantly fighting this hard part of myself that wants more. more. more. more. and more. It sounds like greed to the point where that sickens me. My clingyness sickens me, My greed sickens me, I sicken me. It’s filthy. I don’t wanna keep draining people for my fuckery. It sickens me so much to see how horrible I am. And It’s disgusting. Absolutely Disgusting and sickening.

I just had to deal with one, Who happened to be my ex, Yuki. I mostly call her by her real name, Yolani. (She doesn’t deserve to be hidden anonymously dude.) And she’s been manipulating me our whole " relationship " and practically cheated on me. We were gonna work it out, but she blamed it all on me, so I had to waste half of my sleep time to cuss her out. I’m like still crying, And I’m tired. This combo really isn’t helping whatsoever. But I needed to get this off my chest BADLY.

YES, I had their consent

brushed my teeth, cleaned my room, and read 2 books

all while listening to my beautiful msi, and jimmy’s voice on low volume, i love you jimmy urine, no one can ever tske you away from me, ever ever

I’m draining people, Because I’m scared of my insecurities and scared to let somebody go. It hurts to see how many people I know leave me because of it. And it’s terrible. I’m scared, And I don’t know what to do. I’m really worried, Really scared. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t know how to stop being this version of myself that feels like too much. All I know is that I’m scared. Really scared.

Blake Skinamarink.

IT 2017 was 27 years after IT 1990.

If you don’t get it, Pennywise attacks every 27 years.

Blake @Siloxa922

Beep Beep, Richie!

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] Happy celebration of your birth !

I’ve been editing him all night it was insane, And I kinda like spammed his videos and commented some freaky stuff nice stuff to him (hopefully he notices me 😂🙏)

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] no genuinely I’ve been all over him all night

Stick with me now, What if you realize that maybe I don’t hate Wubbrle, And most of the time I just forget to upvote his posts, Or if I don’t reply to his replies to me, Then I most likely didn’t see it, That’s not you even overanalyzing, That’s lowkey just kinda weird. Well to me. I Don’t know about everyone else, I don’t speak for them. But that kinda just Creeps me out how you’re making a whole post about me, And lowkey lying about it. Sure, I do that, But that doesn’t imply that I hate Wubbrle. He’s a good friend, Sure, We piss each other off, But I don’t hate him.

Edit

Personally, I don’t hate anybody here, Excluding the people that were Banned, Weirdos, Ecetera. I just find it weird what you’re trying to imply. Yes, Me and Blake are good friends, But Me and Wubbrle are too. Even if I don’t show it, I do indeed love my friends one by one, Also, I sometimes do that with Blake too, Not just Wubbrle. Most of the time I forget, Mostly I don’t. I always forget. I don’t deliberately do that because I’m spiteful. Please stop making accusations about me that you know aren’t true, You sound delusional.

♤ Hail :p ♢ Realest.

somnium No thank you.

somnium what is that even supposed to mean

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Lowkey breaking the 111 replies chain and making it 112