It’s the way I want constant reassurance, The way I crave attention more than I probably should, The way I feel almost needy just for someone’s presence. And I hate it, because I don’t want to be “ too much ” for people. I don’t want them to see me as annoying or overwhelming. But at the same time, I can’t help it. I just want to be close, To be safe. To know that somebody won’t leave me behind. It’s exhausting. Being this self aware, But still not knowing how to stop. I just wish I could be " enough " without needing so much. I wish I could be easy to love. Easy to stay with, But Instead, I feel like Iam constantly fighting this hard part of myself that wants more. more. more. more. and more. It sounds like greed to the point where that sickens me. My clingyness sickens me, My greed sickens me, I sicken me. It’s filthy. I don’t wanna keep draining people for my fuckery. It sickens me so much to see how horrible I am. And It’s disgusting. Absolutely Disgusting and sickening.

YES, I had their consent

I’m draining people, Because I’m scared of my insecurities and scared to let somebody go. It hurts to see how many people I know leave me because of it. And it’s terrible. I’m scared, And I don’t know what to do. I’m really worried, Really scared. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t know how to stop being this version of myself that feels like too much. All I know is that I’m scared. Really scared.

Blake Jasmine

IT 2017 was 27 years after IT 1990.

If you don’t get it, Pennywise attacks every 27 years.

Beep Beep, Richie!

★☆☆☆☆ no cuz I kinda agree with you

Blake Jasmine Wubbrle the [REDACTED]

She said thank you !!then called me the F Slur (she takes. After my bsf named Coral)

@petefromeltingville
Blake
Jasmine

Tenna!! said in

did you know that a mother pig will eat their own babies

WHAT.

Tenna!! IT is like— always trendy on summers-- Also IT 2044 is CRAZY—

Blake does she eat her own kind to grow or smth

Blake LMFAO???

Raven said in

I’m a predator

first impression of you when i wake up btw

Blake I hate to say I would’ve agreed. (i know im like, 2 - 3 months late)

Blake oh… well ok…!

Blake said in

yk like- the joke term clanker for ai? IT IS NOW A OFFICIAL SLUR TOWARDS AI

HELLO, WHY IS THAT A SLUR IM GIGGLING. AI DOESN’T EVWN HAVE FEELINGS. HOW IS IT GONNA HARM THE AI BRO. It’s not like the clanker will do anything to protect itself " its not appropriate to use language like that. Especially not casually. " /ref

Blake STOP I THOUGHTI WAS THE ONLY ONE AND THOUGHT I WAS WEIRD

like all in seriousness i fucking love myself. Some fake people really make me feel smart and pretty. I literally fucking love myself so much. Like holy shit, Where’d all this confidence come from before? I love myself that its sickening, But its ok. At least i love myself. <3