It’s the way I want constant reassurance, The way I crave attention more than I probably should, The way I feel almost needy just for someone’s presence. And I hate it, because I don’t want to be “ too much ” for people. I don’t want them to see me as annoying or overwhelming. But at the same time, I can’t help it. I just want to be close, To be safe. To know that somebody won’t leave me behind. It’s exhausting. Being this self aware, But still not knowing how to stop. I just wish I could be " enough " without needing so much. I wish I could be easy to love. Easy to stay with, But Instead, I feel like Iam constantly fighting this hard part of myself that wants more. more. more. more. and more. It sounds like greed to the point where that sickens me. My clingyness sickens me, My greed sickens me, I sicken me. It’s filthy. I don’t wanna keep draining people for my fuckery. It sickens me so much to see how horrible I am. And It’s disgusting. Absolutely Disgusting and sickening.

I just had to deal with one, Who happened to be my ex, Yuki. I mostly call her by her real name, Yolani. (She doesn’t deserve to be hidden anonymously dude.) And she’s been manipulating me our whole " relationship " and practically cheated on me. We were gonna work it out, but she blamed it all on me, so I had to waste half of my sleep time to cuss her out. I’m like still crying, And I’m tired. This combo really isn’t helping whatsoever. But I needed to get this off my chest BADLY.

YES, I had their consent

brushed my teeth, cleaned my room, and read 2 books

all while listening to my beautiful msi, and jimmy’s voice on low volume, i love you jimmy urine, no one can ever tske you away from me, ever ever

I’m draining people, Because I’m scared of my insecurities and scared to let somebody go. It hurts to see how many people I know leave me because of it. And it’s terrible. I’m scared, And I don’t know what to do. I’m really worried, Really scared. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t know how to stop being this version of myself that feels like too much. All I know is that I’m scared. Really scared.

Blake Skinamarink.

IT 2017 was 27 years after IT 1990.

If you don’t get it, Pennywise attacks every 27 years.

Blake @Siloxa922

Beep Beep, Richie!

-_Rai_- Hollow knight mentioned ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

Blake ATOP I SNORTED

Blake HELP

Blake you’re actually not the first person to say that abt yuta 💔🙏

Blake yeah sure

Blake yeah sure

I had the photo of Dori holding their lightstick, But it’s deep inside my files
And I have like, a LOT of files with Yuta and Dori

KENTO ?! (🦑🐇) fuck the " he’s smashing me " IM smashing HIM

Blake EXACTLY